I am forever grateful for the midwives who allow me to sit at their feet and learn the ancient art of midwifery that can only be taught best from those who know it's her-story. I love, oh I love so to hear midwives tell stories of the births that they have attended. I listen to every moment of the lessons they have learned through those births as they whisper on that knowledge. I wish so I had a midwife who lived down the street. One who could mentor me daily and benefit from my youth and eagerness. But.... she does not exist. Oh know her footsteps I will always miss.
So few are the community traditional midwives. Those women who were here before... Those women who cared for the new, the sick, the dying. Those women, with their strong hands, minds, and opinions apprenticed the chosen one from the community who would be the predecessor. The young women who would carry her bag, her torch, her heartache, her strength, her story, her triumphs, her her-story, her fears, her peace. That woman whom would carry on the legacy of the community midwife and share all that she had learned for generations to all who needed it.
Instead.... here we are. lost in a place of desertion. Waiting for the chance to feel, see, or glimpse that legacy that was here oh so long before me. Oh do I long for the years of my grandmother's youth. The years when the midwife came a knockin'. When she came round just to be checkin'.. Never did she come to be messin'.....
I feel her spirit all around me. Within me..... I hear her whisper in my ear when the wind blows upon me. Sharing her wisdom down the ages through all that I read. but, yet still some is lost, it is lost to me. Her story is lost to us because at the time when she was forced from caring for those who needed. For that was the time of the great midwifery reapin'. When she was forced from being there for those who despaired. Instead she left her bag there. only open a bit. Never to pass that way again. Lost because of those who just didn't understand.
I long, oh how I long to sit at her feet.